apaya

finally, nothing gonna least forever. even if i stay you here just right next to me.
it's gonna be over. no memories that we have. now i realize,
i've tried too hard to loving you
because i know at the end nothing gonna least forever
and you are not gonna be a different human that i wish before
now look, the only thing that you do for me is.............................
nothing
have you ever realize that? i try to stay you here
just for nothing ; i try to be pattient
and be sure that you'll change and be a different human
even now i'm not sure that you ever think if i'm there for you
and now i am asking you. DO YOU LOVE ME FOR REAL?
and i know the answer "no, i don't think so" (alah soktau)
so all what you wrote on that bullshit letter just for fake?
(alah palingan balesannya yang bullshit kaga nahan)
so the point is if stay you here just for nothing that wouldn't make any different even when i know if everything not gonna least forever. but how if i can't let you go?

namanya siasia goblok ah.

ah capek gue ngomong 'inglish inglish' gitu. aduh aduh tenggorokan gue kering nih, tunggu tunggu jangan di close dulu. stay right there gue ambil minum (apaan sih emang ada yang baca gitu?) hm tadi gue ke pim rombongan rame-rame ber20-an orang. sekampung ya? iya. kami anak panti asuhan, kak. nonton defiance eh salah valkyrie (LAGI) ngoh shit gue ini mau nonton film berapa kali sih? halloween gue udah nonton 3 kali atau 2 kaliya? 3 kalo gak salah. sekarang valkyrie? udah tau gue ngeh tentang nazi atau apa itulah. hu. mana selama di film gue tertimpa musibah (Astagfirullah, gak deng cuma masalah) aaahhhh tadi itu sempet gitukan gue buka............................................................................................website....................ya lo tau kan? aduh aduh harus taubat gue ini ya astagfirullah aladzim heh salah astaghfirullah aladzim yakanya? hahah terus gue juga ngeliatin foto tantuei gue ke afif andika terus pada 'horny' ah jiji ya makasih makasih. aduh.
terus tadi juga foto gitukan ya, fotokelas. rame-rame. terus gue juga bisa gendong cika hari ini ahuahah cika doang ya gatau kalo indi (aduh maaf ndi maaf) hahah gue lagi demen gendong cika gitu dari tadi di pim gue gendong cika. cika mau ke wc gue gendong cika mau makan gue gendong cika mau duduk duduknya sambil gue gendong eh gak deng yang di wc itu juga gak lah yang ada i'll look like a villager. palingan pas foto doang gitu.
ah kaki gua pegel banget deh tau ah elah ah
i am sorry goodbye, 'you wrong dear' hiyahiyahiya AHAHAH